All to him I owe

Once again revisiting when I wrote to women in my life asking them for advice that they would give one thing that was said is forgiveness, and acceptance. Knowing and living as though you are forgiven and pardoned from all of your sin. That when there are more things in my life that God shows us that he wants, it is a joyful thing because he has already forgiven us everything and now wants to draw us closer to himself. So many times we go before God with our shame and guilt or we do not go before him at all because of our shame and guilt. He is never searching out more things that we are doing wrong instead he is looking inside of us to find more ways he can draw us closer to himself.

When we hold onto grudges or refuse to forgive others it  breeds bitterness and hurts you a lot more than it can ever hurt the other person. This is something that we are told as Christians but it is also something that we rarely really hear. We think that the people saying that to us can never understand what we have gone through or are going through. They do not know what has happened to you, they do not know how insecure or small or worthless that other person has made you feel, or continues to make you feel. The truth is you are right they have no idea. They might try to relate and share what they have gone through and it might help but it might not. What they can understand and what I do know it that forgiveness always feels good. It is freeing and allows you to be so much closer to Jesus. Because you can not possible understand what he went through. His own father allowing him to die the most painful death, his friends all betraying and deserting him. But he forgave it all and he forgave you so when we forgive we are more like Christ and can draw closer to him. In him is all security and beauty and you know you are worth it all when you are near him. I do not know or understand what anyone else has gone through and I am old enough to know it does not do much good to pretend that you do.

So forgive others and yourself because Christ forgave you and draw closer to him through that.